daddy came home and was…different.
it’s been almost a year and still nothing has changed.
he has neglected the needs, wants, and desires of me-his very own little girl.
i’m selfish, and i’ll be the first to admit it.
but…i feel entitled to sex every once in a while.
i gave up school for a year (and didn’t think i’d ever get to go back),
i gave up my friends,
the best job(s) i’ve ever had,
everything-i gave it all up because i love him.
i was a virgin before we got married.
i have a different perspective (or lack thereof) of sex.
to me, because i reserved it for the one and only person i’ve ever loved…well…
i equate it with sex.
i realize that’s not necessarily how it works, but i cannot get around it.
that’s just how it’s always been in my head.
to be neglected in so many ways-especially sexually-leaves me feeling incredibly unloved.
what makes it even harder…is that my daddy isn’t excited by his little girl anymore.
this daddy-daughter relationship we’ve formed…
it meant a lot to me.
and now it’s gone.
when we do have sex, it’s…not with my daddy.
i try to call him daddy and act girly.
i get no response.
he doesn’t call me princess.
he doesn’t tell me i’m a good girl.
there is no focus other than getting it over with.
what do i do..?